PASSION.....

Passion..passion and passion..everybody seems like mugging this word passion..but what is it?? wat it means..?? May be you all are aware of it but still i would like to express my thoughts for the same..passion is anything related to ur fancy,desire etc..everyone has its own choice and taste..some people feel like watching each and every movie..some are fond of food..some for music and all that...these are the things which makes u happy and you feel like enjoyment for them...but is that passion??...no,not at all...passion is something which takes us into enjoyment as well as concern for our future...watching movie ,enjoying food and music may give us enjoyment,fun in life but these cant be our ultimate mission of life...some body asked me whether to choose the enjoyment or the hard work in life??..obviously only enjoyment will ruin our life and only hard work will also makes us frustrated...so what should we do??...so its better to combine the both...its better to forget all the luxuries and should try to develop our interest in the work,the work which makes our life mirthful,enjoyable and happy...and thats the passion is all about...see if you only want to spoil your parents money,only want to enjoy by being lythargic and worthless then it will screw you...so better to develop a passion in something which makes you really happy....and you will find your life a purposeful one,the purpose to achieve your passion,to achieve your aim and if you are impassioned about it then you will never find yourself frustrated in doing hard work for it...
i know its the easiest thing to write about all this crap...yes it is a crap unless and untill we really take it own our ass...we all understand it but when we implement these things on ourselves thn it will no longer be a crap for us...well i am not a successful person and i dont know whether i would be or not because i am still not so passionate about my work but.... but once i got succeeded to be impassioned about my aim..i believe i will definitely be a successful person.....
have a nice day.......

LIFE-a wonderful game....

Life izz what we cant define in words...but still everbody has different ways of living life...some live it very seriously and some doesnt care about it at all...according to me life is nothing but a game..a game which gives us enjoyment,happiness and also smtimes pain...when we play a game it gives us enjoyment..when we win it,we get happiness but if we flunk it,it makes us disappointed nd unhappy.....similarly is our life...just play with it with ful enjoyment and if u get succeed u will b happy nd if not it will lead u in some disappointment but not a whole failure..as u tried again when u failed in winning a game...u hav to try again in life to win it....the similarity not only lies here but also how u play the game of life....well some people play it very seriously taking every step with caution and some just play it humurously as the way they like,they want...according to me playing the game of life with caution will lead u in tension only..so just play it with full enjoyment and the way u want to play it...whatevr you think,u want just do it without thinking about its side-effects but you should urself aware of that you are not doing anything wrong...you must be self-satisfied in whatever you are doing...be passionate about your work..if u will be passionate enough about ur deeds then u need not to worry about ur present and future...your passion will itself write your destiny...no one has control over ones luck and fate.thn why to fear about future, why to be cautious about it...just do whatever u want because u will urself be responsible for ur destiny....the only thing is that just have a passsion in life and be eager about it...u will find urself at the acme...its my guarentee...i have seen this fact thats why writing it here.....
good luck..bbyeee

GT at my frnd's house..

After exams all of us become free from the mental stress..enjoying nd partying with our frnds...but this time january seems like the coolest month nd we(me nd my frnds) packed ourselves in home after the exams...it becomes a week that we hadn't seen each others faces and it becomes difficult to live without seen ur frnds whom u met daily in colege...also,these frnds smtimes become so stingy that they cant even afford a phone call and keep waiting for the others to call...but a day before yesterday one of my gud frnd shipra with whom i used to go colege on one scooty,called me...and as soon as i picked the call she bursted on me that why i wouldn't call her nd is this the frndshp to forget ur frnds during vacations..well,i could say the same thing in reply but it wouldn't work because she had called me finally nt me..soon i placated her with my talks and she calmed down..but after that she started forcing me to visit her as she used to do so whenevr she made a call...this becomes a habit of her and there is no fault of her as her parents r working and she used to stay alone at house the whole day...but heck,why should i visit her house everytime esp. in this thunder??? why cant she?? she never came inside even when she came to drop me sometimes at my home...but being a frnd i have no option but to agree with her on the condition that we would have a GetTogether at her house..she agreed but asked me to inform all the girls.now whats that??..the gt was to be at her house,then why should i informed to others..but since it was my plan there was no option but to agree(the whole balance got finished but wat to do)...i informed everybody of the gt at shipu's house which was to be held yesterday..
we visited shipra's home at probably 1.00 p.m..and we met blissfully with each other..we started discussing our talks and it led to adnauseam...well,one cant leave without sharing funny talks and incidents with our frnds and since we r the girls,we have this characterstic naturally...thn we decided to watch movie but we got stuck at the movies name...two of my frnds went to buy a thriller hollywood movie but they failed to get that and again we had no other option but to watch a bollywood one nd that was "PYAR IMPOSSIBLE"..
first we had our lunch which was yummy and why not so as mothers have the charisma in their hands of making delicious food...shipra asked hr mother to cook the food early in the morning as i i already told you that her mother is a working woman...such a stupid shipra is...i already told her a day before not to disturb aunty nd we managed during lunch time by making smthing ourselves...but she never listened me and always got indulged in formalities...but nevertheless lunch was delicious...during lunch two of my frnds started discussing about xams again as their is a lot of padhaku stuff in our group...and suddenly they remembered of the sheetal,another girl in our class-an exceptional case...i used to call her exceptional because three-fourth of her day got spent in library which was totally exceptional for me..how can one spend such a long time with books...They asked about the sheetal that why we hadn't informed her..everybody started staring at me..know that was crap....is the whole responsibility was mine to inform each and everyone....anyways i defended myself by saying that i forgot....
after lunch we got packed in the room with off lights and started the movie...but it became impossible to hear the dialogues as none of us stopped our tongue commenting on each and every scene..well,there was nothing to be surprised as if two females in the same room cant keep their tongue quiet thn how could we...we were total 9...so we decided to leave the movie nd started our own funny dialogues which seemed to be more interesting thn movie...suddenly my cell rang up...the number was unknown to me nd when i picked up guess what...it was sheetal..i dont know how many numbers she has as she used to call me with a diffrent number...everbody became quiet and the whole buzz got converted to silence as if some proff entered the room...as usual she called me to inform that one of our proff. would going to be shown paper to us on tuesday....Now that was such a silly news but still some of my frnds got excited nd why not ,they were hoping for good result...but i was thinking why i picked that phone because after that they started discussing the exams again such a boring topic....but gradually i distracted them and we got engaged in clicking the sweet memories through web cam...
The clock was showing 5.00 when we leaved from shipra's house after having such an amazing gt...really time with frnds get vanished with in minutes only.......well,that was such a wonderfull gt though i know shipra have to do a lot of work in arranging the things messed up by us....
but thats it.....
wel its more thn enough for today.bbyee..........

BYEFOREVER-easy to say but means a lot

Bye-forever..vry easy word to say...but some people doesn't know wat it means...they easily say it to their frnds esp.to their intimate friends(though i dont knw whether they treat them like intimate or not because if they would then they can never have the strength of saying byeforever to them...)..Intimate friendship is that which speaks by itself,it doesnt need wrds to define but understanding and faith..then how can somebody say byeforevr to their frnd over a small issue...If one friend get upset from the other's behaviour or wrds and doesn't feel like talking to him then does it mean to say byeforevr to that frnd instead of placating him...well,i dont know whether byeforevr means a lot for u or not but to me this wrd esp. from a frndside is more than any of the insulting remark as frnd for me is my life and one cant live without his/her life...The word byeforevr makes me think of the incident that occured when i was in 1st year of my college...
I used to be very protective & caring and this makes me more possessive about my frnds...as i hav told u earlier that i was very innocent in initial days of my colege and thats y i get impressed with people easily....During that time,i met a girl and she was so hearty and cheerful .Soon she became an intimate frnd of mine and i used to share evrything with hr but our frndship didn't lasts longer and the reason behind that was only the trust...she was upset with a boy in our college and she told me usually that that boy annoyed her a lot..being protective as a frnd i scolded the boy not to annoy her without telling her anything because i thought i had the right to speak from my frndside...but she took me totally wrong and called me a mediator and insulted my frndshp by saying "byeforevr"...nd never talked me again....how could she??..may be she didnt treat me as her intimate frnd thats y she said so.....
From that day when anyone says me byeforevr,that entire incident starts ossiclating in my mind...something like this has happened to me yesterday when one of my intimate frnd said me byeforevr over a small issue....
i promised to my self that i would never cry because of frndship but yesterday he made me cry again.....i cant help to stop my sentimental heart from crying......but its fine now.....the matter has been solved today and he said he didnt mean wat he had said yesterday...such a stupid he is..:)
Only i want to request you that never say byeforever to your intimate frnds unless u really mean it....because it means a lot to the anothr one.....
bbyee.........

HAPPY LOHRI

A very happy lohri to all of my friends...well lohri is such a nice and warm festival as we are able to get some relief from this killing winter's cold...i dont know much about this festival as it mainly belongs to punjabi's...but still every year i used to have fun on this day at my uncle's house by celebrating it by burning lohri and at the same time having some dance and moj masti...But from last two years i am not able to celebrate lohri with such enthusiasm as my all cousins have gone outside...and because of that i was not crazy about today also...it seems like other boring days with not much anxiety and consiousness...i have passed my whole day by watching t.v and resting in my quilt as i used to...completely hopeless about todays lohri....but suddenly when my mother came home from my uncles's house she told me about the planning of lohri going there...it was unbelievable and my excitement reached the sky...but it was too late...it was already 9.00 in the clock... i requested my mother to allow me to go there but she refused...wat to sat i was totally helpless ....thn suddenly my father called and told me about lohri....now no body was there to stop me(mumy ki chalti jo nhi papa k aagey:)) and he allowed me and i was on my way to uncle's house.....all my cousins and bhabhi were waiting for the lohri to burn...it was about time and this lohri becomes a blasting lohri for me.....
happy lohri....

School life was memorable......

Whenevr i think of my school life,all the memories got fresh in my mind...it seems like it has happened just a few time ago that m going to school with a bag on my little shoulders...now i think of the times when we used to fight over silly things and then to get annoyed with one another....stop talking to each other and then again trying to placate one another.....so innocent we were at that time.....innocent because we often fight over marks..comparing one another mark sheets..always trying to secure higher than our friends just if they are our only competitors in the whole class...when i think of these things it seems to me so silly because now i am mature enough to realize that friendship remains forever but competition keeps changing with people....competition is just a key to motivate us in life but without friends we feel like timid and life seems totally futile to us......i passed my entire school life in only one school and with the same partner...it seems strange but i have only one partner from nursery to 10th though teachers sometimes become rude to us and fixed our seats with boys in order to maintain their so called discipline such a crap for me......hehhehehee...........
I cant help laughing at this moment because i came to remember one interesting incident when i was in 4th standard...at that time i used to be short tempered and used to get involved in fights over small issues specially with boys...as i have told you mam fixed our seats with boys...but with me my seat just oscillating here and there from one boy to another....seems strange??..to me also...as i always messed up with my partners..there are many eg- i hurted a boy on his face with my nails and the most craziest thing i had done was that one day i lifted chair and started protecting myself from those pricks..i was such a freak really...teachers dubiously called me a girl....that was the time i wont forget ever...hope those school days had never been gone from my life........just missing them a lot..a lot...
bbye
hi aati muje

Exams seem to be better sometime....

Whenever exams come,it seems like god has tied troubles around our neck and we are praying to him to keep us alive...the entire semester is spent in moj masti..in sessionals also we are able to score marks either by cheating or by taking help from friends....no doubt friends are the most usable material in those time of trouble specially intelligent friends:)...but during exams time ,there is nobody to help us and teachers look at us like they grab us in a while...so no option left but studying...actually not studying its mugging...you have to mug and mug those silly books day and night....those 15 to 20 days seem like hell....But i feel that there is one good thing about exams...atleast we would not worry about some other work and there is no need to get up from bed specially in this killing cold...mumy is always ready to serve you anything you demand...But with end of exams,so end the exams tension but we have to serve back to our sweet mumys...everything that she did gets taken back by her...(in short exams khatm to ghar kaa kaam shuru)....how much is all this nonsense....and the most worst situation arises when we are sleeping in quilts and phone (land lide phone) starts ringing...it seems like going to hell out of heaven to pick up that phone from a moron..ya the caller seems like totally moron and booby..cant he call us on our cell phone(why cell phones are made for?? jst to have and stare at them)..so rubbish is all that...atleast in exams we need not to leave our warm quilts and we need not to bother about such small activities happening around us....i know i am going alittle selfish here..but what to do....in this killing thunder i dont wanna live my bed and just want to dream in my quilts.....
have a nice day...byeeeee

Friendship starts from where??????

Everyone iz very familiar with the word 'FRIENSHIP' and people with diffrent thoughts give it their own definition...some think that frndshp is love,care,understanding or sacrifice urself for ur frnds and many more....yes,today m here to discuss with you some facts and experiences about frndshp that i hav realized during my college life.....

In school days there is no doubt that i hav very much close friends...who were everything to me..at that time i was so much innocent that i felt that friendship is more than family because i have good friends at that time...so this thinking remains with me when i joined college...I got seperated from my all school frnds and have the task of making new friends...u may be wondering that why i am saying that making friends is a task??...may not it be a task but making good and rite frnds is a task....but as i told you that i was very innocent i felt whoever speaks to us sweetly and happily is a good friend...one more thing that i was very sensitive at that time specially about my frnds and thats why got deeply attached with them...but this was not the same on both sides...as time passess on i felt that friendship for them is just to have people with whom you can enjoy and share funny talks about others...they were totally unknown to understanding between friends...'UNDERSTANDING' - this word says everything...if there is understanding between two people then that relationship is the strongest..understanding of words,family problems,ones feeling and many more....when ever they feel like enjoying they insists me to join them to movie,to trip etc etc...but whenever i need them they refused to go with me.no doubt they are always there with me to listen my talks and problems but i feel that they never understand that....i know there is no selfishness in friendship and thinking that i always being amiable to their decisions..they admire me saying i am very helpful,very sweet,very nice to my friends but i didnt feel this about them...???? seeing all this i realized that if everyone is happy and satisfied with you then it means you hav made a lot of sacrifices in your life...and yes i hav made but i didnt ask anything in return except some understanding from my friends...but i get nothing...and know i treat them only as friends because i have understood that one sided best frndshp can never exist....and one more thing i realized from them that one should have friends of same thinking and same status..more high figh friends will always leave you in vain.... (exceptions are always there)......also,dont have expectations from your freinds..if u never expect something then u will be never hurted...
Although my heart knows a lot about frienship but now i stopped listening to my heart as it always hurt me....so trying to mould the word FRIENDSHIP by feeling it from mind...but rite now nothing is coming in my mind about 'Friendship'..(as i am not in the habit of thinking from mind about such sensitive issues)....still in confusion because i have diffrent people as my friends in every stage of my life..but i find that school friends are only the real friends and m very lucky that they are still with me with whom i share everything.....they are my real best frends...
bbyeeeee

Smtimes got ambiguous about myself

I dont knw how people are able to take decisions about their life nd work..but i am not able to make decisions about my life,my work,my tasks to be done..its a common human nature that one get never satisfied with wat he has..but its the nature of only parents that they get never satisfied with what their children want to be...always expecting more and more from them because of which they remain under pressure during their student life..afterall they have to be stand on their parents expectation because their parents are doing a lot for them to secure their future,fulfilling all their demands,comforts etc only because they want their children to make them feel proud...unfortunately where we have gone?? Did god has given us life only to fulfill all expectations of our parents...nd y not, parents give us everything without caring about their own needs..so this is the only agitation in my mind....well after being inspired by 3 ideots my uneasiness get alittle solved.
Parents want us to have a good degree which is the main source of earning money according to them..but they dont know that degree izz only like handling some important papers to an illitrate.U know what, we all are like those workers(majdurs) who work day and night to feed themselves and their family.What happened feeling embarass?? but why ?? are we not craming the books only to get a degree so that we can feed our family?? and there is not fault in that afterall we are fulfilling our parents expectation.....but where have we gone..if we want to do what we want then we are not given so much autonomy by our parents(spcialy to girls)...and by denying them we are hurting them...so what should we do??...boys may have solutions to these situations but being a girl i am still in ambiguos state..although being an intelligent girl in the eyes of my parents(as i always secured abv 90) i felt so dumb when i found myself unknown to knowledge based thingss(being a crammer always)..and sometimes i blamed my parents for this.But would it be right to blame them?? well i dont knw but i do....still remain indecisious about my life and my parents thought.
But after taking some moral from 3 ideots i have decided to live the life the way i want without caring about anybody...although not now but my parents will surely understand that one day when success is after me..not am before success...
well i think i hav bored you a lot...so bye for today..